Spring Broken

Spring has officially been broken into. People have gone home or to the beach or to Aruba. I sit in my dorm room at 9:12 a.m. on The First Official Day of Spring Break. Someone next door forgot to unset their alarm. It's sort of driving me crazy but also making me think I deserve it for all the times I left mine on and Ashley had to wake up at 6:40 to turn it off. Aaaaah, nothing to do and so much to think about. I plan on zoning out for a while. Rolling up inside and thinking. About ....

Graduation is coming up faster every day. I still don't know what I'm going to do. No word from grad school. I'll go check real quick and see if my application site still says pending.
It does. I don't have a white dress. I don't really want a white dress. I'm white. I could go naked and everyone would probably think I had on a white dress. Ashley's dress was cute last year.




Can't wait to see her today. Ha! Me and Christina popped up like "Oh congratulations on walking across the stage guys." And we were proud. We just didn't come until after the ceremony. But no one knew. Well, we did end up telling Ashley at least because we had bad consciences. God, I can't believe it's been a year almost.



How could a year have gone by. That's craziness. I've been in a foreign country. I can't believe I really got to do that. If I don't get into grad school maybe I really will go back. I could stay with Wally I bet till I found a place. English. I could teach english. I don't feel old enough to do that. I don't feel old enough to do anything. There is no way I can have a real job. But chile might not be like a real job. It'd be like travelling abroad again and you liked that. Yeah yeah. I never thought I'd really miss it. But I'd miss my family a lot too.



At least its not like the Peace Corps where I couldn't even come home if I wanted to for 2 years. But the peace corps still sorta sounds cool. there's the application. Not erasing that in case I ever need it. Gotta find that latin lover some day. Ha. latin lover. I miss Charmaine. She'd tell me something funny and wise. About not needing boys or a real job. She'd tell me that ain't no man trustworthy like jesus. She'd tell me something funny and wise about not needing worry.



But I know she worries too. Sometimes I worry about her. If I don't see her I don't know that shes doing ok. We should talk more often. I should call her. why don't we call more often? Why does busy ness always get in the way of the important stuff? I need to make a list of people I need to call. so many people I want to talk to. I wish they'd make a list of me too so when I forget they'd remember and we'd still talk. where's a piece of paper.
Crap it's already 9:33 I gotta clean my room or I'll never do it and I won't have time to take a shower before i meet up with christina and ashley. Can't let ashley's new man see me being a bum the very first time.