And so it begins ...

So I have this page now and I was making it to help stay in touch a little with people when I'm not near them as will soon be the case with summer approaching and my latin lover hunt ... i mean study abroad ... coming up sooner than i remembered... so when i get to these far away lands maybe this page will be painted with scenes of my lively adventures through the slip and slides y calles of that life but until then i get to just type my random thoughts as i sit piled between the papers wondering how i'm gonna clean up my mess. so if you wanna skip this part just check back at the end of may/beginning of june ... yeah that'll be about right... that's when i'll slip and slide

I was cynical earlier today and its kind right what real conversation can spark in a heart. I forgot that real existed for a while and that even though it is harder in theory than fake, it feels a lot better. It reminds me of this song that i really like as of late that says something like ...
you said i know that this will hurt, but if i don't break your heart then things will just get worse/
if the burden seems too much to bear, remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
FULL LYRICS -- http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/relientk/letitallout.html

yeah and so i lost my train of thought while i was looking up those lyrics so i think that's my cue to stop.